Support raising or begging for money?

Guys, this topic is one of the most uncomfortable topics I've ever talked about. I feel way more comfortable talking about sex than talking about raising money. And I have been thinking about that the last few days. Why is it so uncomfortable? And here is how I feel about it:

We came to Minneapolis because we want to help people. This is what Missionaries do right? We go to people who need help and then we feel good about helping them or? I mean, let us talk honestly about that. It makes us feel good when we are not weak people and instead, we can be the hero...? It feels better, to have everything in life together and tell others how they can change their lives. But here is the thing (which I think is actually an awesome move from YWAM): As long as we have to raise support, we don't feel like we have everything together. We feel weak and dependent. Ideally dependent on God, who will make sure we are getting everything we need. We need help to be able to help others. We have to humble ourselves and realize that it is not our own strength. "If I'd be a millionaire, I would give a big part to the poor." I heard many people saying that, including myself. If I would be a millionaire, I would definitely buy our family a house, but would also love to build a nonprofit. But that would make me feel like "I did that". How much more down-to-earth would it be if God takes care of that, and I can be a part of it? These are my thoughts. Asking for money makes me feel naked. It makes me feel maybe a little bit like a fool too. But the thing is: We do need help from our supporters. And every single person, who is supporting us, is such a blessing. And I know that every single person of them is really humble themselves. You guys are part of this whole mission thing. We are the ones, that everyone here sees but you guys are the ones who are "only" seen by us and God (And, oh well, the accounting at the YWAM base who is processing the support). Our situation at the moment is, that we need to double the amount of support that is coming in. We have the opportunity to rent an apartment in a neighborhood with lots of ministry opportunities (starting with prayer). However, it is still safe to live with a family. The owners are Christian and want to have renters who pray for the house and the neighborhood. We could rent it for a really good price. We still need twice as much as we have at the moment to rent actually anything. So please pray for us, and feel free to share. I know, most of the people reading this, are supporting us already. We love you guys and appreciate you so much!